Sunday, January 20, 2008

Quiet Blog

I know my posts have been a bit weak lately. I know you come here looking for updates to celebrate with us. I wish I had something to tell you.

I haven't sat down to write about "where we are" in the process lately because I am afraid the whole thing will come out as some huge complaining vent... I just don't want to do that. (I save it for my close friends and family... wink, wink!) In short, we simply have not heard anything since we received our Birth Certificate. Our attorney is out of the country, and we do not have another person to have contact with. It is not an ideal set up, and it is incredibly frustrating, but it is what it is. I am not blaming anyone, I am just bummed. My HOPE is that while she has been away, the people behind the scenes have been moving forward with our final steps to bring Luciana home. Either way, it is clear that my fantasy timeline of having Luciana home by the last week in January will not become reality.

So, I am hoping to be able to give a great big, fat update here by the middle of this week. We should have passport (!!!!!) and we should be moving forward with DNA. If these things have not been done, my next post may be from Guatemala because I won't be able to sit still in Maine a minute longer! ;-)

This stage has proven to much more challenging for me than I anticipated. I imagined it full of many little celebrations and a whole lot of expectations about getting READY! The "not knowing" seems very unfair and it hurts tremendously, but I know it will be over very soon.

In the meantime, I have recognized that I need to be busy and to be with people. I was incredibly humbled to have 6 amazing, kind, fun and creative woman come spend their Friday night with me to make a scrapbook for Magda. More on that later! Yesterday we were so happy to spend time with Keith's family, and Sam was thrilled to see his cousins. We did sushi with wonderful neighbors and friends last night, and today I am getting in my car to meet my college roommate and dear friend for girl's night... hotel, dinner, and a movie without animation! Ha! Pinch me! Keith and Sam are headed for Sam's first ski lesson and a day of Daddy-Son bonding, and tomorrow we will all be back together to share our 36 hour adventures.

All of this is my best attempt to ward off the adoption blues and make this time about the people who bless our lives everyday. Luciana is in my thoughts and heart with every breath I take. I ache for her daily, and I can not tell you what an update will do for our spirits. It is time. So, for now, I am off to open road... can we call I95 the open road? Sure. The open road, coffee and car tunes, greeted by a big hug and an amazing friend... perfect remedy for the blues, don't you think?

Thanks for checking in and sending your words of encouragement. I hope, hope, hope this next week will bring big smiles to ALL OF US!!!
Much love.

7 comments:

Bobbi said...

I am thinking we just throw out the date game (they killed that), and we just celebrate the 2nd DNA!!

You know I am here.........

Much Love

Auntie G said...

Come on ORANGE!!!
Gail

Guate4Jack said...

Hang in there, I bet they were working behind the scenes. I too thought the wait after the PGN OUT was the worst of the bunch. You are soooooooooooo close. I'll be watching for your Orange and Pink!!

Becky and Jack

Bobbi said...

I LOVE Lucy's pic


Love Cassie Butler

Emily said...

I just know this week will bring good news! Hope you had a great weekend full of family and friend distractions...hang in there- I know how hard these last few steps are.

Emily

Guatemama said...

Beth,
I am sorry that things have been so hard lately. I have a good feeling that you are farther along and will be updated when your Lawyer is back. I pray that it is so! Hope your girls night with your college buddy has you refreshed and made the weekend go by fast. Hate to wish my life away but man I want it to be TUES!
I will check back to see if you have an update. You are close to ORANGE!
Tracy

Kerri said...

Fingers are crossed that you get good news soon!
Kerri and Ruby