Friday, February 8, 2008

Calm

With still quite a bit to do before Tuesday, I am feeling a sense of calm this morning. Each night I have dreamt of Sam and Luciana together and I wake up feeling so happy. It doesn't take long after waking up to replace the image of my children together with mental lists of everything to do, everyone to see, and everything to pack and repack! But, before my brain gets in the way, I am calm because I know that everything is going to be okay. It is going to be amazing, and it is going to be right.

It is said time and time again of others in this process that this journey is impossible to describe, it is the truest up and down rollercoaster you can imagine, and it will take you to places and emotions you have never known. And, it is said time and time again that it is all worth it.

This morning I am looking at my list covered, luggage exploding house while Sam and Keith run around to get out the door and I am just so happy to know that we will be bringing Luciana here to our home where some other kind of craziness will be going on, and we will just be a family in the middle of it all!

I have not totally exhaled, but I am getting there. Breathing is easier and life is sweeter. We are so close.

Much love.

7 comments:

Nicole said...

You ARE so close! And I am SO happy for you! :)

Bobbi said...

What fun she is going to bring to your home.

Sweet dreams..........

The gFamily said...

Well said! You are so close! I can't wait to see pics of Sam and Lucina together!

Kerri said...

Ooh, I'm so excited for you!
Kerri and Ruby

Guatemama said...

Beth,
I am so so so excited for you guys!! I can't wait to see you together with Luciana at last! You are going to have a blast in Guatemala and I am glad that you have met so many nice people. Thank you so much for all the nice messages durring our trip. I will be checking in all the time to see how you are enjoying having BOTH kids in the same place. OH The last 24 hrs here have been pure bliss I have NO WORDS to describe it. In only 2 days you will have the same feeling!!! YEA!!!!!! Safe travels.
Tracy

Chris & Lindsey Wheeler said...

Just found your blog!! I AM SO EXCITED FOR Y'ALL!!!! Your family is so BEAUTIFUL!!!! Have so much fun with your baby girl! We are in the process of adopting a precious little girl from Guat....I miss her terribly.

Blessings,
Lindsey Wheeler
www.thewheelerjourney.blogspot.com

Ginger--Maya's mommy said...

What great dreams!!! However, it won't be a dream for much longer.